Is it my day??

Hi everyone, I'm not too sure if today is supposed to be my day or Kwijung's day. If it is my day, I haven't read my reflection yet. I have a touch of food poisoning and I had to prepare for work and small group.

Nevertheless, I would still like to contribute. Yesterday, I was listening to a late night radio talk show and the guest was an author of a book called "God's Problem." His atone seemed to be objective and well balanced about God's inconsistencies and how Christianity was basically delusional. With the host's help, they both tore down some basic Christian concepts with a false mask of academic neutrality.

All I was thinking was this..."Man I am so lucky that God has shared some of the mysteries of his word with someone pathetic like me."

I think the two main problems that people often experience when it comes to their relationship with God is

1) People limit God to their own experiences and what they can or cannot see.
2) People are pretty much self-centered and full of themselves.

I know I suffer from all this. I go through daily struggles and misery because I refuse to let myself off of the mantle and give God center stage.

I've been reading sermons by Charles Spurgeon that Dulla lent me and he asks a very simple question all the time through his graceful words. "Who do you think you are???"

Pretty much, I sometimes act like a god unto myself. But God in his faithfulness still draws me nearer to him despite my arrogance. And he often does it through this church.. (so I am grateful to you all.)

I get reminded that God's name must be and will be praised and glorified despite our own problems. Like Pastor James reminds us, "hold on to the cross!"

I have food poisoning, severe diarrhea, nausea, my students are annoying me a little bit, my boss is kinda nuts, my mom calls me every two minutes. I worry about the future too much, I'm anxious, weak, hypocritical, idle, lazy, and just now I spilled half of my gatorade all over my nice pants.

I'm unworthy in every way and a selfish pig to boot. But I cling on desperately to Jesus and the cross because I know that even despite myself, He makes me a little bit better every day.

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeya.